"& MAYBE its true...im caught up on you."

What a perfect way to end my monday. I was kinda down during the day because i haven't heard from her all day. Then finally i get a phone call. Oh man i felt all the goosebumps tingling throughout my whole body. You know what feeling im talking about. feels great huh? haha. So my dad went to party with his bff. (haha) and i was in a mood to workout. called up mike to hit 24hour fitness. yeee we did WORK at the gym. haha got me so pumped, i hella want to go again tomorrow or something. but anyways after the gym i told Julia i was going to visit her, i decided to trick her and told her i was just going home. lol & oh boy did it work. haha. she felt so down like chris brown. 2 mins later i tell her that im in front of her house. I picture her jumping outta her bed with a big smile on her face. lol =)
"wassup.....Julia's mom?" hahaha whooops. i thought that was Julia at the window. i only saw the shadow so dont blame me! i started dancing and doing that feet tapping thing in the air. lol "I'm still in my room" says Julia. GG BREH. hahahaha! how embarassing is that?! lol oh wells. So she came out and we was chillin under the moonlight for about an hour. =) Guess what? I was the first dude to meet her mom. haha! YEE. "okay okay go home, skoo tamorow, skoo tamorow." she cares. when she cares that means she likes me. haha heyhey!!! =) Soooooo i have never did anything like this before. Maybe it was good to always try something for the first time, even if it gets you in trouble or not. Cause at the end you will know whether it is worth it or not. take chances. When you win, you win big. =)

"Mad"

sigh, what a weekend. Lets keep this simple.
Lowell's Homecoming was crackin! so many people, but most of them didnt know what they were doing so they were basically standing there in the way. w/e. My date was thee best! Dessert after too! oh man. perfect night for me! =) Saturday was a day for me where i was taught a lesson. It was one of those where it leads you to a brand-new perspective on a problem that needed to be looked at. Not really a BIG problem but it was something that i had to be careful of. Everything turned out okay at the end. Im guessing we're starting to realize what would happen if one of us makes a mistake. I seriously need to becareful because i felt sooo bad that night. i dont know why...seriously. i really felt bad like i let her down or something. It was a small problem but it just hit me critically. Its probably because i really want this to work so it hurts me when i do something wrong. I'm going to try my best and give it all i got.

Sunday & today was the day for me that made me realize how naturally driven i can be to reach my goals. I can still do it, might even seem close enough to touch. I was thinking about my future the whole day. i gotta get into that energy to refocus on my efforts of doing good in high school AND have fun at the sametime.

"Look into your heart & you'll find love, love, love."

So Going through my iTunes library and i find this song. Man i just remembered how good it was. haha

I wore shorts today, not a good idea. The sun didnt even come out at all! =( In European lit class, we were having a class discussion and my teacher asked us "Tell me a story on a toy, item, song or happy moment in your life that made you who you are now." I literally sat there for 30 mins thinking. oh man. lol I actually realized that i went through a lot of negative things that made me who i am now. Im actually thankful for that cause i turned out pretty good. (well thats what i think at least) haha. I gone through some embarassing events & bad choices in my childhood and learned from them. Glad i was still young because if the things that happened to me back then; happened now, then it would of been crucial. haha

Anyways, Im starting to get irritated off of someone that Helps Ms. Drager T.A. with me. I come in and shes already saying "oh tell darrell to do it....he hasnt been here for how many days now..?" WOW are you serious. okay yeah i wasnt there for 1 day but you seriously gotta call my name out like that? You suck up bitch. Stay suckin up. thats why you got no friends hoe. I remember when you only came to me when you wanted something. Pshh getoffmeh!

After school, The balkids were outside ! Good tah see em! Im happy that Angelo got a new car! Integra is the way to goo. haha. I thank him for giving me a ride to Jerrods house & i thank Jerrod for cutting me up! =) So then after all that Larry, Jerrod, Mike, Francis and myself went to stones again! lol but it was cool, nothing else to do since Julia was at practice..=(
I always tell myself to save up my money but its SO FREAKIN HARD. I spend, spend, spend when i get the chance...that is so bad. i must stop! lol

Well cant wait for tomorrow! HELLA NIGGUHS are going to ocean view to ball! thats wassup!
Also cant wait til friday! going on a field trip for half the day then...LOWELL'S HOMECOMING! =)
Sat. i got the car wash in the morning and maybe Movies with juju again? up to her tho, i always let her decide hehe =)
Sun. is NFL GAMEDAY BABY. but im probably going to be in the mood to go out so we'll see. maybe call up Hyzell? havent hung out with my bestfriend in ages breh!

Sun, can you just stay out?

Dam late again for 1st?! Thank god i have Ms. Hall! haha.Yet another boring morning! but its coool. As long as we aint doing any work! Thanks Hyzell for driving me to lowell so i can drop something off for Julia! lol dam 5th period was crazy today, i would wear a sweater on a hot ass day. seriously tho, the weather be fucking lying sometimes! said it was going to be in the 80s this whole week. ima wear shorts tomorrow, it better be hot! haha.
but anyways, man me and miguel T.A. for the wellness center, they was giving us passes to deliver, and we had to go outside the whole time! back and forth...one word. SWEATY. hahaha. but it was fun tho, we never get any action like that. lol

So i didnt feel like doing bitch work for Ms. Drager cause i T.A. for her 7th period. i ran into the crew after school! man it was fun, we was rollin like 15 deep to stonestown. haha it never gets boring when i kick it with all of them. Cant wait for Thursday when we all play bball at OV! After stones, some of us took the 29 home. dam dude, taking the 29 between 330-430 is all bad. STAY PACKED. thats why its good to drive. so you dont have to be on the bus with sweaty ass niggas and loud immature kids. lol


J U L I A. oh man, im so glad i saw her today. She came over after practice and brought me cough drops. =) What a sweetheart. lol Sucks how she had to leave early cause she got hella hw. Dam lowell girls. hahaha jk. but yeahh time for dinner! be back tomorrow. DEUCES!

Mr. Independent?

This morning was weird. I woke up at 9 feeling all sick. Thought that i wasnt going to school. I had to tho cause i ACTUALLY did my essay for psychology. haha. I told my mom rich is coming to pick me up cause he dont start school til 930. that lucky punk. lol but anyways, she gave me a speech saying im old now and you gotta wake up on your own. blah blah blah. lol guess shes right. but i mean if you are saying that then you should also trust me when im going out right? I can most def. take care of myself when im out. i know whats right and whats wrong. & if i do something wrong, i got my friends to tell me that im making a mistake or not. If they dont tell you then you know that they arent your real friends. So dont worry parents. I can take care of myself. Mr.Independent here i come. lol

School went by fast. i missed 1st and 2nd period. So yeahh. I was very mean today. lol i kept mocking people in the halls and just saying things that i usually keep to myself..oh wells, no one did anything about it. haha.

I like helping people. So what i did is that i helped Neal ask hyzell out. Isnt that cute? he came to our school and waited outside with flowers. I had to get out of class and open the side door for him so he wouldnt get kicked out. lol I think Hyzell knew it was coming cause The bal kids were sending her one word texts that would spell out a sentence. Proud of neal tho! took him 4 months! haha. Man im only in my 1 month. Got a long way to go so i know if she is the one or not!

Time to head out, my mom bought me Nyquil, im about to take that shit and fall asleep! be back tomorrow? Or later! ;)

I hate being S I C K! UGH

Whoa this is cool, i should of done something like this a long time ago! Well lets start off simple..

Sundays! These are my alone time days where i chill at home and watch FOOTBALL. & plus its family day.
but not today..my parents went to the 49ers game without me. I cant wait for my mom to get another game ticket for free so i can take JK. I like how she called me FIRST this morning. =) Man this girl is special. but enough of that, haha. so football got kinda boring for me & none of my fantasy players were doing good...i wanted to go out all of a sudden. So i called up hella people to go get some yogurt. i was hella craving it at the time. No one picks up cept richard and larry. THANK god they were both home doing nothing too. woooo. Frank called me back saying he's at DXC! that jerk! i hella wanted to go get some new kicks. im tired of my shoes. haha. so rich swoops us up and then we go get his girlies...that are freshmans...lol and get some Nubis. If you guys havent tried it yet, your missing out. seriously. haha. i stacked my cup up full of crap. came out to be $5.14. oh man it was worth it. im going next time. haha.

Later on, me and larry saw Aj at Lucky's! we hella forgot he worked there so we walked in cause rich and his girls were buying something. idkidc. and we ran into neal, hyzell, angelo and ivana. lol They would not call me up no more tho! its cool. but yeah i lended Angelo money cause he wanted to buy stuff so we can all watch AJ bag it. hahaha, w/e. i seriously gotta stop lending people money. IMTOOGENEROUS. =)

Sitting in richards car today started to get me even more sick. Stuffy i guess, and the window was down!
started to feel like crap. lol Told rich to drop me off @ my uncles house in the sunset. (my only family in the city, everyone else is in SJ.) I thought it would be fun to chill with the family. everyone from SJ came down here too. so i was pretty surprised. Right when i stepped in the house, i wasnt in the mood anymore. god i've been pretty moody these past few days. is it the dro? oh man ill explain more of that later. hahaha. but yeahhh so i started to get EVEN MORE sick. & i was getting annoyed. My lil cousins (their bday party) kept trying to play with my sidekick. and i dont want them to break it. AND, my cousins, a little younger than me, kept laughing at these japanese clips. Their laughs are SO ANNOYING! AND ANOTHER THING, my reletives kept telling me to go eat, but i say the samething everytime. "im not hungry now, ill eat later" I mean i love it how they care about me but i can take care of myself. Especially my grandpa. He say asking me if i wanna eat this or that. lol Just like my mom. Guess they care alot! =)

So, i called richard and he swoopped me up, again. (i literally love him for always getting me.)lol i called Julia in the car cause i couldnt stand watching him and the freshman michelle holding hands. HAHA. proud of him. gotta get use to it tho. its rare to see him doing that but its all good. he learned from the masters. (me and larry) haha. but anyways, i called JK cause she texted me again saying ANOTHER guy was following her when she was walking home from San Bruno. I wish i could do something about it but i cant. so i feel super bad, she says she can take care of herself tho so thats good. its so weird tho! everytime she goes to san bruno, there is always someone. UGH. but yeah i was acting hella rude with her on the phone. lol idk why. felt pretty bad after that. called her when i got home and havent had a good laughing convo like that with her in a while! but i still felt like shit. lol So i just layed in my bed and watched tv for like 3 hours. lol havent done that in a long time either. KING KONG showed. pretty good movie.

After that i thought i was going to sleep cause i felt EVEN more bad. but then i couldnt sleep cause of my runny nose. lol got up and downloaded this new song called "can't shake loose" by Ne-Yo pretty nice song. lol Webcaming with Julia right now but shes doing her hw. dont wanna bother her, its been silent between us for like an hour already. lol and Larrys aiming me about his problems. i love listening to him tell me about his problems tho. cause i can learn from him and tell him good advice at the sametime. I wonder if im the only one he tells? Would be pretty cool. Oh and he told me to put this in my blog,

"H1LARRRY0Us: put me it in saying HI."

hahaha. my boy. oh man, i think Julia is mad at me. She aint talking and she's laying in her bed. I should end this now. lol BE BACK TOMORROW! this is fun.